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Monday, October 6, 2014

TaDa! Here they are!

So glasses are weird.  If they aren't perfectly on your face things look funny.  I still can't figure out when I should and shouldn't wear them.  I miss just walking around.  I was looking at my iPhone yesterday with and then without my glasses and it's like a whole new world!  I can't believe that I was missing the sharpness of so many things.  Hopefully this will help with my Statistics class too!  #40IsTheNew20!

Monday, September 29, 2014

And with 40 it all goes downhill...

I went to the eye doctor today.  First time in like 20 years (give or take).  I read all the lines I think I am a total rockstar.  Then all of the sudden it happens.  I hear the dreaded words "you need a prescription".  I wanted to scream, yell and throw a tantrum.  I'm 40 years old.  I have made it this long and never needed glasses.  Now I do.  I have joined the rest of my family in the glasses department.  I feel old.  This makes me feel older than my actual birthday did.  So I picked out my new glasses, rather my sister did (she's my stylist).  They should be here in about a week.  So I have one week left as a plain old, no glasses wearing girl.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

So Here it Is...

So here it is, the 4-0.  Not gonna lie doesn't feel any different than the big 3-0 or the big 3-5 or hell even yesterday.  Only difference I feel is a little more tired because my beautiful J1 was so excited to wish me Happy Birthday that she woke up around 5:30 to do so.

This hasn't been the easisest of Birthdays.  It has nothing to do with being 40 (40 is the new 20 don't ya know?).  It's much more personal than that.  B should be here with me.  Her and I should be celebrating 40 together like we have celebrated every Birthday near or far since we were 19.

I miss her.  I didn't realize how little I have actually dealt with and accepted her being gone until this week.  As it got each day closer to yesterday more and more dread filled my heart.  My anxiety grew to epic proportions.  Luckily we kept pretty busy yesterday.  We volunteered at a local run, I had a rough moment when the band played one of "our" college songs.  The kids had a baseball game.  It was hot as heck out so the fact that I was gross and sweatly definitely helped to occupy my thoughts.

Then we got home.  All the day's events were over.  All we had to do was feed the kids and put them to bed.  I sat down on the couch, and then it came, all the feelings that I had been holding in and dreading all week.  It came over me like waves.  Then came the tears but this time instead of suppressing them and wiping them away trying to be tough and strong, I let them come.  Boy did they come.  Then I felt a relief come over me.  It was a strange feeling.  One I haven't had in the five months since she has been gone.

This relief was for me.  It let me feel that I am never going to get over losing her, but it doesn't have to define me.  I don't have to be that girl who doesn't have a best friend and never will again.  I can just be me.  That is who I want to be.  That is who she would want me to be.  B would have never let something like this define her.  She went through much worse and she mourned for quite some time.  When she was ready, she picked herself up and dusted herself off.  That is the kind of me I want to be.

I am going to spend today celebrating life.  I am going to celebrate mine.  I am going to celebrate B's.  I am going to celebrate our lives together.  I am going to pick myself up, dust myself off and be the me I need to be.  I want to be a me that B can be proud of.  I want to be a me that I can be proud of.  I want to be a me that my girls can be proud of.

Today is my Birthday and I am here to celebrate it and I know that B is celebrating with me just like I celebated her yesterday!  No distance can keep best friends from being together because we will always be in each other's hearts!

I love you B and I will love you forever and always!!!

Now on to the big 4-0!  

Monday, May 26, 2014

Mommy Madness: Are you Summer Ready?

Mommy Madness: Are you Summer Ready?: Now that Memorial Day weekend is over SUMMER IS HERE!!! Are you ready for summer?  With all the running around with the kids, pool trips, wa...

Are you Summer Ready?

Now that Memorial Day weekend is over SUMMER IS HERE!!! Are you ready for summer?  With all the running around with the kids, pool trips, water park trips, playdates you are going to need all the energy that you have!  I have a challenge for my readers.  Now that I have started using the It Works products I can't tell you how much energy I feel like I have.  I wake up in the morning and I am ready (ok almost ready) for anything that J1 and J2 have to throw at me.  Whether it's heading over to the Cheney Pool, or just setting up the Bouncy in the backyard and hanging out there I am ready.  I am challenging all of you to check out my 90 day challenge.  This challenge is testing a sample of the It Works products to help cleanse, lose and tighten your body.  I have actually been in the lose phase for longer because that is my focus right now.  It really has made everything easier for me.  We went to a family party yesterday and I was full of energy ready to chase the kids around and play and enjoy them.  You have lots to lost and everything to gain by giving it a chance.  Email me or call me and we can set up your challenge and chart your results with before/after photos so we can show another success story.

Kimberly Blackburn
Independent Distributor
It Works Global

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Feeling Frustrated and Sad...

I am feeling VERY frustrated.  As some of you know I lost my very best friend in the entire world this past December to a Stage IV Glioblastoma.  She went almost exactly one year from diagnosis to passing.  She had two surgeries, chemo, and radiation.  She did everything.  She is the strongest person that I know.  I miss her everyday and sometimes missing her literally paralyzes me with anxiety about how I am going to get throught the rest of my life without her.  Then I feel selfish because I think about her husband and their three little girls and how hideously unfair this whole thing has been to them.  It's a vicious cycle that I can't seem to pull out of.

I am trying but with our Birthdays coming up in less than 2 weeks EVERYTHING reminds me of her.  I spent 40 mins snot drip sobbing to the season finale of Grey's Anatomy while I watched Cristina leave.  Anyone who has watched the show knows that Cristina and the title character Meredith are best friends.  They are each other's "person".  She was my "person".  The only one on the Earth that knew me better than me and vice versa.  We have been with each other for over 20 years.  We lived together for 5.  We were there for each other's first dates with our husbands, the birth of our children, the passing of grandparents, and family.  I was there with her when she found out about her sister's death.  We were pregnant together.  I was actually pregnant with both of my girls while she was pregnant with her youngest (gotta love Irish twins).

Coming back to the point, I am very involved in our local Relay For Life.  I have been since we started the team in 2011 in honor of my MIL.  This year we are also doing it in her honor.  I have invited EVERYONE I know (friends, family, virtual strangers) in town to be a part of our team.  The event is in less than 1 month and I have 2 people besides myself signed up.  One of them I literally forced to do it while he was here at my house visiting my husband, and the other is a wonderful mom that I have met this year at dance school.  I have pretty much done everything that I can think of short of dropping to my knees in front of each person and begging them to join.  The apathy of friends and family as I am trying so hard to throw myself into this to help the pain and the loss of her is honestly hurtful.  I feel like I try to be there for everyone.  I try to help and do what I can.  Sometimes it isn't much because I have 2 kids and obviously they have to come first, but I feel like I have tried to support everything that people have asked us to.  Where are those people now?  Don't get me wrong I DON'T do these things for reciprocation.  I do them because they are the right thing to do and mostly it's been to the benefit of the kids.  So I am not sure why I still find myself being upset that no one is there for me.

I wonder how they would feel if at 39 years old they lost the person besides their immediate family that meant the most to them.  It's been 5 months and I still pick up the phone at least twice a week to call her and tell her some insignificant story about life or about something silly, cute, annoying, etc the girls have done.  I cry for "no reason" from my kids viewpoint but really a song, or tv show, or commercial or even just quiet makes me think of her.  I have to explain to my kids that I just miss Auntie.

Even worse than not being able to get my own friends and family to support the cause, is the complete apathy of some of the members of the committee.  They just do the same old thing every year, no more no less.  There is no sense of excitement, there is no sense of urgency for the event to succeed.  We had a member this weekend take 2 hours out of her day to be available for picking up materials to start promoting the event.  Posters, flyers, etc. not a single person showed up to pick anything up.  How are we supposed to get this town plastered for the event without any help.

I know I sound whiny, and I understand why it means more to me than to others especially this year.  What I don't understand is why it's so hard to get people to support something that is so important.  Cancer research is coming along in leaps and bounds over the years.  Was it able to save my friend, no but I am sure as HELL gonna bust my ass to continue to help raise money so that her death isn't in vain.  Maybe someday, another young mother may be saved and won't be leaving a husband and three beautiful children behind.  We hear the stories, we read the papers, but unless it happens to you the impact just isn't there.

Just venting, I am sure that we will have a successful event and I know that no matter what she will be looking down on me smiling and proud of what I have done.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Have you tried that "crazy wrap thing"?

Kimberly Blackburn

Most adults have at least one area of their body that they would improve if they could.
Individuals all over the world are getting results.  What would you work on stomach, arms,
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In addition to the wraps, we have a complete compliment of skincare, lifestyle, and
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Take a minute to check out my website and the photos and see the differences for yourself.