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Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Momma always said there'd be days like this...

Days like these hit me the hardest. They twist and turn my heart and my insides into mush. It's days and things that happen in my life, leave me feeling alone.
They leave me feeling my loss. It's days like the last several that remind me I miss her so much. She's will always be my "person". When things come down the pike that I need to check myself for, cry about, or just talk, I feel the empty whole in my heart. I am grateful that it was once filled with love. I guess in a way it will always be full. Not being able to talk to her is so frustrating. She knew me better than I knew me. That was kind of our thing. That why we were such a perfect match. Honestly I don't think that two friends were ever more Compatible. I know that she's in that part of my heart forever but to be able to have her look at me again with those beautiful brown eyes and just say a perfect world how would you want this scenario to play out. Talking it out with her always made everything easier to process. I could use you right now.....I know you're up
There and I know you are watching over me. I love you B

Thursday, October 8, 2015


Mommy Madness: BEWARE ONLINE COSTUME RETAILER FRAUD: FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE CONTACT: Kimberly Blackburn 815.714.2628                    Halloween Costume Store FRAUD (Joliet, ...

Saturday, September 26, 2015


CONTACT: Kimberly Blackburn
Halloween Costume Store FRAUD

(Joliet, IL) – Online Halloween costume superstore is taking payments for goods not in stock.  Kimberly Blackburn, placed an order September 26th on the popular google trusted website.  After not receiving a confirmation email, Blackburn called the number on the website to confirm the order.  Mrs. Blackburn spoke to a representative who told her that her order had been cancelled because the item was out of stock.  Blackburn explained that the item was listed as available and she was able to order it and provided the order number.  The customer service representative transferred Blackburn to the supervisor, Megan.  Megan began telling Blackburn that her order was never processed, they did not have the item in stock, and confirmation emails can take up to several hours.  After Blackburn provided the order number, Megan again told her that the order was not processed and her credit card was not charged.  The supervisor refused to provide Blackburn with any further information about the company or who she could contact to rectify the situation. 

After getting off the phone Mrs. Blackburn checked her bank statement only to find a charge from the costume store. There was a phone number on the statement different than the previous one.  Blackburn called and spoke to a man with a European accent who told her that he had no knowledge of the costume store.  After confirming the phone number with him, she thanked him and hung up.  Upon hearing of the blatant negligence, lies, and possible credit card fraud, on the part of the costume store, Blackburn’s husband, John, called and was treated similarly and told that it would be at least 3-5 days to refund their credit card.  Further attempts to reach out to the costume store for refund were denied, and the Blackburn’s have still not received a confirmation email canceling the order, or a credit to their card.  

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Sunday, August 16, 2015

Where has the summer gone?

I love summer! The sun, the pools, the sand. Picnics and parties and festivals and Tastes! I hate that it is ending so quickly. I have such an amazing summer. With my much younger sister staying with us.  It has made the first summer vacation the GREATEST! We had dance, and baseball, swim lessons. My little mermaids have both passed the swim test at Splash Station.  They can go on any slide they want. It amazing how much fun and how happy our little "girl party" is. I love watching these little fishes . They swim and swim and swim. And I love it! Tomorrow will be the last day that Splash is open. Last day for Lindsay to work. I can't believe it's gone by so fast. I have to say this has been one of the best summers ever!

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Time does NOT make it easier...

It's been almost a year and a half and not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Which would be fine if it was all the amazing happy fun things that we did and moments that we shared, but it's not. There is anger, tears, despair, and loneliness. I'm still pissed. I'm pissed at you for leaving. I'm pissed at me for not being able to "move on" like everyone says I should. I'm pissed that horrible, disgusting, despicable people get to live and still be on this earth and you're not. I thought that I was getting better. I've read the bullshit steps of grief more times than I can count. Mostly I think, to try to trick myself into believing that I am "progressing" in grief. Well I'm not. I'm still pissed. I hear stories in the news, hell stories right in front of my face about horrible mothers and I get so angry I can't see straight. You are an amazing mother. Why are you gone but these scummy people are still here. When am I going to stop being so angry? I give the lip service about "everything happens for a reason" but it's bullshit. There is no good reason why you aren't here. There is no good reason why we aren't raising our girls together. There is no good reason why your girls don't have a mom. I can't come up with any reasons. I can't stop being angry. I don't want to be angry but I am. I don't want to feel this way but I do. I will never have another best friend. I will never again trust anyone the way I trusted you. I will never again know what it's like to have you here to talk to. When do I stop being angry? When do I think of you and not feel like my heart is being ripped out. When do I stop feeling so alone? I miss you B 

Saturday, January 10, 2015

How do you not raise a HOARDER?

Ok so it's clean out time.  Clean out the old to make room for the new.  I'm terrible about this.  I'm a mild hoarder.  I keep things because "what if I need that someday".  As my husband repeatedly reminds me, every time he goes to the basement, someday never comes and we have a basement full of junk.  I think it's full of my treasures but he doesn't quite see it that way.   

Now it's time to teach my girls about this.  J1 gets it.  She doesn't love it but she says its what God would want her to do.  Thank you Catholic school.  J2 does not get this.  She cries, hoards, and literally melts down when "old" things go away.  I thought it was normal when she got her big girl bed.  I thought it was my fault when it was her binkys.  Then it was the microwave.  We got a new one and she cried her eyes out in a full on dramatic episode.  She cried for over a half hour about missing "mikeywave" and how she didn't get to say goodbye.  

We have gotten somewhere.  After much deliberation she allows me to send old baby clothes to her little cousin.  Well as we are cleaning out the closets we found their old winter coats.  J1 happily tells me that she's like to donate her coat.  J2 not so much.  She put it on and danced around the house crying about how much she would miss it.  It's maddening but I'm the same way I save everything.  At 5 years old have I ruined her?  Can I change this?  Am I completely overreacting? I guess I will have to wait and see.